chat.

[stein]

hey what's keeping you busy?

i am busy listenin gmuzic and drinking koffie. while i post here and check out two dutch forums.

am gonna see if i can find a picture for the site..

greets
stein/xs

[forever]

Playing Wesnoth and OpenTTD.

[stein]

computer games i guess, can you tell me about them? i used to play aoe and gta.

[forever]

Age of Empires and Grand Theft Auto are cool. I've been with the series all sinds version one. The first computer game I ever played was Dangerous Dave. And later supaplex and games like Wolf 3D.

Wesnoth is about recruiting an army and conquering your enemy. You can read more about it on www.wesnoth.org - it's free. Open TTD is also free and open source. It's a transport game where you have to transport goods and passengers to make money. You can read more about it and view screenshots on www.openttd.org - both websites also have fora where you can advertise your website

[stein]

hmm good idea. btw there's a gamer section at the bottom of the homepage.
maybe an idea to start a topic there, would you want to be the moderator of it as well?

[stein]

so, locked up, whatever, yeah right, success. hope it ends as i want it too. otherwise too bad. how do i want it to.

[stein]

unlock if you can be open!

[stein]

dont read this: be!

[stein]

get this questions out:

I can understand it(that i am locked up), may i live where i can go allowed?

[stein]

i wont go out in any thread or violence, myself wherever i go always. hope later on i can go anywhere there exists. since some day, i know we can go forever.

[noxot]

jesus, he is the key. sometimes he traps for good.

but there was something that said I went and I saw but i can't grasp such things. how can they then speak to us from this other place? i know I am not worth it.

[noxot]

and they say we forget and we can't remember. I don't know if I understand though.

this age is coming closer to an end they say. i'm scared. soon things change it seems.

[noxot]

that reality is hard to grasp and know. i can't and I don't know it. i am worthless. defective. my heart is not right. those that are pure and clean they have such good sight.

[noxot]

and I heard recently that there is much speaking going on, but it is hard for us to grasp it. look into the sky one person says. that they are speaking but I am wicked and I am dull. maybe I am trapped in a trap. what was I supposed to do? what kind of spirit was trying to hurt me? there are many questions and I don't know and I can't see.

I said 'i don't want visions" i know I am dirty and I can't bare when good comes around me, it scares me and makes me see who i am. i want to see the Hand of God touch someone else and to be amazed. but why?

[stein]

as you speak it could happen 2 or more ways as to being touched as you speak.
i;ve red it through though it was hard to grab, someway, ok.
now a as i thought of it and think to have seen it all i want something new even if thihk i wouldt beleive first. but no harm may be in it.x

[stein]

and we be easy i saw more lot i wasnt blind ever allright, i can handle muchos sure, ok. dont want wrong experience(s) though rather.
but i may not be reared and see what you say but not for now ok, catch up ya'll and every on all. we be good ok.

x

[noxot]

it seems like there is always more with God. He could take you to another place, He has done it before. I saw He showed a man named enoch many things. God has given so much already that i could never learn it all but still He is always showing more it seems.

there is so much going on and still there is God speaking. the other day I went through normal life and I looked at this that it seems God planed out.

“For behold, I create new heavens
and a new earth,
and the former things shall not be remembered
or come into mind.
But be glad and rejoice forever
in that which I create;
for behold, I create Jerusalem to be a joy,
and her people to be a gladness.
(Isaiah 65:17-18 ESV)

I will not pretend that i know what God is saying. I know God is good. God taught me that to know that you do not know certain things is also a kind of knowing.

[noxot]

Feb 21, 2012 23:44:25 GMT stein said:

and we be easy i saw more lot i wasnt blind ever allright, i can handle muchos sure, ok. dont want wrong experience(s) though rather.
but i may not be reared and see what you say but not for now ok, catch up ya'll and every on all. we be good ok.

x

I don't want wrong either. I don't want lies. one day i will overcome them all through Christ I hope. now I remember that there were men of God I read about who could not do anything but then some how an amazing thing happened and the Holy Spirit touches them and then they can handle everything.

[stein]

i need to work hard on my typing errors

[noxot]

you know more than one language but I only know how to speak english. you are blessed.

[stein]

thank you noxot.

[stein]

do you have anything new to chat about?

[noxot]

I have a dvd set that i got from some people on tv that seem like good people. my heart is always looking for good people. I love my heart to be full of joy in seeing them or hearing them.

this dvd set is called "living free: breaking the cycle of defeat" it has 6 dvds. I listened to 2 yesterday.

the dvd has said a lot of good things, and the people seem to have love in them. I was really surprised at some of the things they are teaching, because most of the church does not seem to know that God speaks in parables very very often in His words. far more than a normal person would be able to know I think.

they also sent me a book called "from dream to destiny: the ten test you must go through to fulfill God's purpose for your life"

but I have not read the book yet, I will soon. i hope it helps me. really i just wanna be a light and have Love.

[stein]

that sounds good, i am aware of the parables.

i should download another movie think thats what am gonne do this eve.
then i can watch it tomorrow maybe.

i hope for you that you will reach this goal of love noxot, but dont forget is always with you and has been so too.

[noxot]

we are free yes? then God is our freedom. we are slaves yes? then God is our master. i'm free brother, and all i want are chains of love. and more and more, i'm going to be with God. and I think you are too.

[stein]

i will let you know here how my day was ok...
where do you live?

[noxot]

I am staying at dallas texas right now. I like this place, it was a good part for us to go here. i live with God, where ever we go, I am in a cloud with him. and I am in a cloud. 2 clouds. day and night. 1 day, 1 cloud.


and how is your day? the same as mine i think! and all different too.

[stein]

i had an appointment the 28th which didnt end good. it was a meeting with about 5 persons and me. 2 people from where i used to be, who will deside where i will be moving to within about half a year. and some people from here.

they are thinking of wether i will go live on my own or something else.

the keypoint is my behaviour. and also my behaviour when i have used alcohol or so. which makes me think and wonder a lot. and gets me dwon a lot too.

yesterday i went shopping with a nurse, i would have done it myself though, but she had to go anyway. so we went with the car.

i got food for the group evening meal.
i went sporting that day too and then i the evening we had the meal.
a lill while after that i broke down. had to cry and lay on my bed till just ago.

i was praying for death or something so stupid.
i thought the only reason why i still care is because god showed me what the sun means...
i never knew anyone really.......

i hope this day will be better.

greets

[noxot]

brother we go through all kinds of hardships here. as long as you are in Christ, all is well.

human beings just can't see a lot of times. they always want to trap us in a box. but God uses that for his advantage. and God teaches you many things all the time constantly.

you are a king and a lord and a god to be honest, but human beings are confused and do not see that. but still their spirit serves you. those close to God are the ones that are the servants of God. and not everything we have is manifest yet, but soon it will be. but you are to be after what God and you do together, whatever that is. doing anything without God is not good.

but look at how much a free man in Christ suffers for the sake of many around him. you are truly the free man when you are in Christ. and you noticed even that paul the apostle had to go to even prison many times. but he was happy with God.

and you know that most people in the world do the best they can with what they know in trying to help others.

remember that in the past people thought it was a good idea for when you have a headache to saw your skull open to relieve the pressure?

but God is with you my friend, ask Him what you want and have faith in Him. always seek only God my brother, because He is the one that Loves you more than you can love anyone, more than anyone else can love you. God is jealous for you my dear, jealous not in any evil manner but jealous to protect his wife from all hurt. which you are his wife. His Passionate Love is sometimes hard to see and grasp, but trust me when i say, "God is Consuming Fire".

don't be downcast my brother, God wants you to be cheerful. God wants you to know He Loves you. you are the apple of His eye my brother. i don't know how that is translated in your language. but a good translation from the hebrew is something like "you are the reflection in my eyes. you are the one that I see in my eyes." something like that as the spirit says.

and I know love can be blind sometimes. but still I can also tell you that there is a kind of sorrow that is a godly sorrow. and you look and know what kind of good man Jeremiah is. though i don't know much about him, I know he wrote the book of lamentations. and I see him and he is a beautiful baby.

[stein]

theres both kinds if effect when i read..

do you know how come one sees or what one exactly sees?
for the rest i am glad you help me out believing, i;ll keep going as good as i can ok.
knowing god does even when i dont no more.