Post by noxot on Apr 8, 2012 15:04:53 GMT
I typed some thoughts trying to understand what nothing is to a person and not all of it made it to the final post but all my thoughts are here and may not be ordered well and really all my words can not be redued to an image because that makes confusion but I still attempted to contemplate what nothing is and some things God does and tried to think about how I parts of who I am are made by god but I dunno if I even understand what I said. This all has to be taken from the fact that we can not understand how God made us since most of Gods works go unnoticed. It is like a baby trying to explain everything in the entire universe.... but harder.
I did not see God correctly and so I hated something that did not exist, and that is what nothing is. and that is what I wanted to become ( nothing ) and I did become it.. and I hated it.. but now that I am married to God, nothing started to get the characteristics of God.. and I really Love it. because God created us out of nothing, and here I am, nothing... and wow now i'm with God and I am always getting better... being like God is.. feels way better than not being at all... guess I was just jealous of God or something when i did not see Him. but he still took me as a wife. I guess you can call 'nothing” a female. and Gods power is unable to be comprehended, how he really made His creatures out of nothing and then Loved them enough to make us like he is... and more.. made us to each be unique... and more.. because God is always past what we can think. but really my understanding of what nothing is, and the characters and power of God is... was just a disorder of things. because when you can't see God, you are nothing but yet you still exist because God saved everyone. I see past this entire universe... there are a bunch of things that we do not know or understand... it is hard to grasp how God created us out of nothing and yet we still are even though we have the thought of God and then could become a nothing and yet still exist because God loved me more than I could love myself... and I can't really put into words to describe the fullness of who I am or even what a shadow of me is because God fills all things. But I tried anyways.
i wished myself away to not exist and for some reason I still exist... its like I blinked out of existence and then came back...
i'm trying to explain to you what nothing is... it is like... a hole in God.. but God made creation out of nothing, because only God is.. so nothing, once God called it... it started to do things and creation came about. then god said, "mix with me" and it did... and now nothing is something... hard to explain... just like it is hard to explain that... creation is created but when you are married to god, you become as the nature of God instead of as a created thing... but you see nothing exist because God is greater than all things.. past all conceptions and fills all things.. so nothing is really God too... and so with a blindness on the spiritual man... they do not really know what nothing is and they think they can become nothing.. but instead it is nothing that becomes God... and even that... God is higher than that and is always more... because God is past knowing...
yeah those thoughts don't seem sane but if you understand that you are married to God, then you turn away from him, that you become something that is not like him... then God comes and makes you better by showing you that he does care enough to be what you want to be.. then you change your mind and want to exist with him who really does love you. when god comes for you, he becomes all the thing that you did... and new things are created because of that.. he made nothing to exist even more. and I know I have everything that i want, because I was nothing and God became like I was and so i became like God is. because God made us out of nothing... but I became even more because God turns everything for my good. and now the place that did not exist, now exist and me and God will enjoy those things that came about by my turning away forever. because God does really care. And its like I never turned away from him.
but its weird. we always were and yet we were not... how could I explain to you that.. when God creates something out of nothing.. that God was already nothing because only God is and he fills all things... and yet God is more powerful than that and as you see each of us exist in God... because God can create a bunch of sons of him, who are of the same nature as he is...but the sons of him still can not be equal to him even though they many different gods.... because god is always greater.... and we can never comprehend God, we can only be in Love and learn more about him... but the desire for nothing is the desire for God.. because we are so small compared to god that we are nothing.. and yet nothing is inside of God and God is inside of us.... and the desire to be nothing.. is to be part of God.. because it feels good to know what you are compared to god.. and God takes care of us.. even though we are so small and nothing... and we don't have to think to exist... because God does not have to think to exist... so all your desires are pure in God, but when you have a cover over your eyes.. your desires do not even know what they are and it is hard to grasp who yourself is.. i.e. a son of god...a tiny part of who God is... when you are blind to the fact that you are a son of God.
it is hard to explain what God did to me... and how God created us out of nothing... but he ended up convincing nothing that we became... that it wants to exist... you just don't see that yet because when you became nothing from who you are i.e. a son of God, that is when you were turned into a fragment of who you really were.. like a covering over your eyes.... when you believe that you knew what nothing was you trusted in yourself and could not see God. but when you turn back to God you can see your true self and that you did want to exist, but that you wanted to feel what it feels like when you are without God. But you did not like that and so god filled it. But God fills all things anyways and God is always more and more and way past what we did as God and God is way ahead of what we wanted and so noting existed and did not exist at the same time but I can't describe things with words....
or a kind of "parable" for you:
light shines down on objects and those objects cast a shadow. right now everyone in this world that does not know who God is, is but a shadow of the object that God created them to be. the shadows are real too because the object is real. the object is real because the light shines on it. in darkness all that is seen is darkness. the light and darkness are the same thing. the shadow of the object could not exist unless the light became like the shadow. the light is darkness too because God fills all things. and the object is the shadow, and the light made the object and the light fills the entire room but shadows can exist because darkness exist. the shadow is not seen at all in darkness. the shadow is seen in the light but if the light became a shadow then the shadow is not but yet is. the object still is, but the light is really bright and it is a fire. the object gets burned up by the fire that makes the light and yet it still exist, just as a better thing, because the fire was proven to be better than the object. but all the things I talked about all still exist because they are all eternal. its just that nothing makes sense whe you can not see all things... because there is more than the fire as well. but since right now the shadow only knows its own nature, i.e. shadow of the object... but if god lets the shadow see, then it changes and yet is still known to have been a shadow. but then it knows again that it is an object and that it is a fire and it can grasp by knowing all of that that God will never be able to be comprehended but that it likes being better than a shadow because a shadow is not much but the object was more and the light was more and the fire was more. and the shadow was always those things and was also not those things and it does not know how it was but maybe when it becomes something more it can look back and say "hey i don't want to be just a shadow, please God my maker do not let me not exist.. and so the shadow exist. because of the free will choice of a higher understanding of who you are. and that is why you exist instead of not existing. I mean.. a higher version of yourself asked God that you exist instead of not exist and that is why you are here... to get better...because if all of you really did want to not exist as you conceive it, then you would not exist. but you exist because your higher self is already with God, just this age does not show it yet.. and the closer you get to God in this age, the closer you are to your desires. and the closer you get to God this age, the more your true self becomes active in the shadow of you in this world.
I did not see God correctly and so I hated something that did not exist, and that is what nothing is. and that is what I wanted to become ( nothing ) and I did become it.. and I hated it.. but now that I am married to God, nothing started to get the characteristics of God.. and I really Love it. because God created us out of nothing, and here I am, nothing... and wow now i'm with God and I am always getting better... being like God is.. feels way better than not being at all... guess I was just jealous of God or something when i did not see Him. but he still took me as a wife. I guess you can call 'nothing” a female. and Gods power is unable to be comprehended, how he really made His creatures out of nothing and then Loved them enough to make us like he is... and more.. made us to each be unique... and more.. because God is always past what we can think. but really my understanding of what nothing is, and the characters and power of God is... was just a disorder of things. because when you can't see God, you are nothing but yet you still exist because God saved everyone. I see past this entire universe... there are a bunch of things that we do not know or understand... it is hard to grasp how God created us out of nothing and yet we still are even though we have the thought of God and then could become a nothing and yet still exist because God loved me more than I could love myself... and I can't really put into words to describe the fullness of who I am or even what a shadow of me is because God fills all things. But I tried anyways.
i wished myself away to not exist and for some reason I still exist... its like I blinked out of existence and then came back...
i'm trying to explain to you what nothing is... it is like... a hole in God.. but God made creation out of nothing, because only God is.. so nothing, once God called it... it started to do things and creation came about. then god said, "mix with me" and it did... and now nothing is something... hard to explain... just like it is hard to explain that... creation is created but when you are married to god, you become as the nature of God instead of as a created thing... but you see nothing exist because God is greater than all things.. past all conceptions and fills all things.. so nothing is really God too... and so with a blindness on the spiritual man... they do not really know what nothing is and they think they can become nothing.. but instead it is nothing that becomes God... and even that... God is higher than that and is always more... because God is past knowing...
yeah those thoughts don't seem sane but if you understand that you are married to God, then you turn away from him, that you become something that is not like him... then God comes and makes you better by showing you that he does care enough to be what you want to be.. then you change your mind and want to exist with him who really does love you. when god comes for you, he becomes all the thing that you did... and new things are created because of that.. he made nothing to exist even more. and I know I have everything that i want, because I was nothing and God became like I was and so i became like God is. because God made us out of nothing... but I became even more because God turns everything for my good. and now the place that did not exist, now exist and me and God will enjoy those things that came about by my turning away forever. because God does really care. And its like I never turned away from him.
but its weird. we always were and yet we were not... how could I explain to you that.. when God creates something out of nothing.. that God was already nothing because only God is and he fills all things... and yet God is more powerful than that and as you see each of us exist in God... because God can create a bunch of sons of him, who are of the same nature as he is...but the sons of him still can not be equal to him even though they many different gods.... because god is always greater.... and we can never comprehend God, we can only be in Love and learn more about him... but the desire for nothing is the desire for God.. because we are so small compared to god that we are nothing.. and yet nothing is inside of God and God is inside of us.... and the desire to be nothing.. is to be part of God.. because it feels good to know what you are compared to god.. and God takes care of us.. even though we are so small and nothing... and we don't have to think to exist... because God does not have to think to exist... so all your desires are pure in God, but when you have a cover over your eyes.. your desires do not even know what they are and it is hard to grasp who yourself is.. i.e. a son of god...a tiny part of who God is... when you are blind to the fact that you are a son of God.
it is hard to explain what God did to me... and how God created us out of nothing... but he ended up convincing nothing that we became... that it wants to exist... you just don't see that yet because when you became nothing from who you are i.e. a son of God, that is when you were turned into a fragment of who you really were.. like a covering over your eyes.... when you believe that you knew what nothing was you trusted in yourself and could not see God. but when you turn back to God you can see your true self and that you did want to exist, but that you wanted to feel what it feels like when you are without God. But you did not like that and so god filled it. But God fills all things anyways and God is always more and more and way past what we did as God and God is way ahead of what we wanted and so noting existed and did not exist at the same time but I can't describe things with words....
or a kind of "parable" for you:
light shines down on objects and those objects cast a shadow. right now everyone in this world that does not know who God is, is but a shadow of the object that God created them to be. the shadows are real too because the object is real. the object is real because the light shines on it. in darkness all that is seen is darkness. the light and darkness are the same thing. the shadow of the object could not exist unless the light became like the shadow. the light is darkness too because God fills all things. and the object is the shadow, and the light made the object and the light fills the entire room but shadows can exist because darkness exist. the shadow is not seen at all in darkness. the shadow is seen in the light but if the light became a shadow then the shadow is not but yet is. the object still is, but the light is really bright and it is a fire. the object gets burned up by the fire that makes the light and yet it still exist, just as a better thing, because the fire was proven to be better than the object. but all the things I talked about all still exist because they are all eternal. its just that nothing makes sense whe you can not see all things... because there is more than the fire as well. but since right now the shadow only knows its own nature, i.e. shadow of the object... but if god lets the shadow see, then it changes and yet is still known to have been a shadow. but then it knows again that it is an object and that it is a fire and it can grasp by knowing all of that that God will never be able to be comprehended but that it likes being better than a shadow because a shadow is not much but the object was more and the light was more and the fire was more. and the shadow was always those things and was also not those things and it does not know how it was but maybe when it becomes something more it can look back and say "hey i don't want to be just a shadow, please God my maker do not let me not exist.. and so the shadow exist. because of the free will choice of a higher understanding of who you are. and that is why you exist instead of not existing. I mean.. a higher version of yourself asked God that you exist instead of not exist and that is why you are here... to get better...because if all of you really did want to not exist as you conceive it, then you would not exist. but you exist because your higher self is already with God, just this age does not show it yet.. and the closer you get to God in this age, the closer you are to your desires. and the closer you get to God this age, the more your true self becomes active in the shadow of you in this world.