hello (noxot)

[noxot]

hello my name is noxot and I found xounstaer to be an interesting person and so I wanted to join the forums here.

[stein]

hi noxot,

thank you for joining, and thanks for the compliment.

im eger to hear a bit about you and who you are. in case you dont mind telling that is.
feel free further to post and say anything you wish.

welcome

[noxot]

I don't know what to say about myself. I believe in jesus but I do not really follow him right now like I should. I don't know if I ever have followed him like he wants me to.

there is really not much to say about who I am, because I am not really much at all.

I guess I can say that I am 25 years old and I live in texas and I work a night time job.

[stein]

you could open a thread about your believe in jesus, you can do that either underneath christianity. or i'll also open a board there for religious questions as well.

from what i hear now you sound very kind, so you're certainly some.

what job is ii you do?

anyway i would love to talk with you about your faith in christ, i guess you might be following him much better then you think you are.

but lets talk about that in a separate thread, does that suit you?

[noxot]

sure it suits me. but right now I can't really think of anything to post about in the christian section.

I work for a company called UPS. I load packages in trailers.

I am a very shy person but less shy on the internet.

[stein]

i used to have a forum called 'paranoids', the idea was that it was especially for people why are shy yes. but it never had a member.

i know upc.
i hope you wont be shy here

you could post 'what is a good relationship with jesus', or something like that. but it certainly isn't a must. just do as you feel like.

c u

[stein]

Jan 11, 2012 20:09:29 GMT noxot said:

hello my name is noxot and I found xounstaer to be an interesting person and so I wanted to join the forums here.

how do you find me so far noxot?

i say sorry for not always replying immediately ok? i do most certainly do something with what u say. and read everything. sometimes it seems as if there is misunderstaning from my behalf.

i mean i feel like u take me for real. if you can imagine how come i find this strange that u find me real. one could wonder lots ofcourse, or not.

i praise with thank you amens to your personality ty brother.

[noxot]

Mar 18, 2012 18:26:12 GMT stein said:

how do you find me so far noxot?

i say sorry for not always replying immediately ok? i do most certainly do something with what u say. and read everything. sometimes it seems as if there is misunderstaning from my behalf.

i mean i feel like u take me for real. if you can imagine how come i find this strange that u find me real. one could wonder lots ofcourse, or not.

i praise with thank you amens to your personality ty brother.

I am probably self-centered a lot. i'm sorry if i am. I just want to put down whatever comes to me if thats ok? i know it is hard to understand everyone 100%

dear brother, you do whatever you think is for good! you are kind and you care. you are worth talking to, how many people have I found that are like you? I think you are the only one. that is a good thing I think! wow i can't believe that you would take time to talk with me either sometimes. I only wanna do good to you, i don't wanna do bad to you.

you are real. why do you find it weird? you are real. i'm real too. what do you mean by real? I try to be myself. i want to be a fingerprint of God. you know, each fingerprint is unique. I type way to much ;S


there is always a chance at either of us misunderstanding each other i guess. you know for me in my mind there is always something getting suggested to me, sometimes outside of me sometimes myself and sometimes its hard to tell. I think i'm trying to see reality, I think. even if some things inside of me lead me on, I consider myself good. or to try to be good.

its weird though man, i don't get this at all, where am I, where are others, everything is far to complex it seems. or is this only a delusion? do normal people know themselves really? who is to ask? see this other of me can be a facade, but I get tired of being accused by myself!.... but I doubt I am that. I want to think this way unless it is bad. i don't think it is bad.

I'm a mess sometimes I think. I can really start being confusing sometimes.

the more I talk to you the better I will know you. you are a good influence on me, if I am not on you, then I have to be better or not be around you I guess. I really really care about you. I need to really really care about all.

words are cheap sometimes though! but all i can give you are words. or i can pray too. I don't know. I just try to find myself, and I need to find sheep too. you are a sheep. I can't even sort out all of me, I am all real, I just got to be ordered I guess.