the next coming celebrations.

[stein]

hey eastern is on it way not, can you tell me what next celebration is about to you? to me i guess i recall very well jesus is about to stand up out of the dead any of the upcoming celebrations soon. i honestly do recall there was trouble before and sadness and so on i bet. if it mattered him i dont know. he believed!

i told here this and that i have even exta loads and i doubt. but what is there to doubt about the next, eastern isnt it, and the rest then?

do you know more about what is believed? at around eastern?

[stein]

surviving the holydays how does one do that or how do you?
how well do they fall with you?

[noxot]

wow you just spoke about what is going on with me right now it seems.

for the flesh, I sort of just ignore the holydays. when i was a child I used to like finding colored eggs. I would grab eggs, put them in my basket. then I would find another, bend down to get the egg, some eggs would fall out of my basket and I would not notice and I would get more eggs. then my aunt behind me would get my eggs that fell out of my basket.

how i survive all things is with God and I go to tell you, God really likes being around His children.

but for me I am very scared and weak and I don't know what would happen if I went inside a church building. i'm scared what I will see sometimes. and i don't know Gods plan for me completely yet.

i would be sad if i started to speak and then they reject me. and me I can't speak a word, i'm so scared of groups of people. and I don't wanna see them hurt themselves anymore. but i don't know how i could help them when they keep judging me.

and I might do something weird, like scream things out. or talk about something and people not get it. and me I am really scared that maybe I will trip over someone and then who will be there to pick me up? it has to be God that picks me up. and really i think the pride of me, it has to fully be converted to pride of God and not myself. cause I don't wanna be a false prophet.

so i just work and eat food and I am really learning a lot from my brothers and sisters on the internet. and I never would have been able to meet most of them, unless i had the internet. and it helps me a great amount.

I try to walk to the east of the garden, i think i need to go there. I will get here.

[noxot]

but it is cute how the world does easter. plastic hollow eggs with candy and things in it. normal eggs getting boiled and transformed to have more beauty in them.

but to focus completely on Christ for each of the holidays is the greatest thing! and really I believe that there is no day special than another. but for instance Christmas really makes me happy. and people give gifts to each other and I think that is good.

but I am not really too familiar with all the different church holidays. like i don't understand lent to well.